Life lately has been very interesting for me. All I had done for a few months is work,work,school, and more work. I was fine with that, because more work meant more money! But it was not until recently that I found the joys of hanging out with people again. I had successfully trained this guy to do paperwork and open and close the store, so I was able to take my days off, without being called in, or being called in general.
Well I finally had the opportunity to have a life again, and the car to go places, so I had a few day off, and one of my guy friends, which I have like for quite sometime now, had asked if I wanted to get together with him, so of course I said yes! Anyways, so he said lets go to a movie and so we did. I drove myself and just meet him there, mostly because it is kinda far. Anyways so we went and saw a movie, he paid which was very nice, I did not think much of it, cause he is quite the gentlemen( probably one of the nicest guys I have ever known). So after the movie, we went back to his house and talked for a bit, then we cuddled and watched a movie, and he kissed me! Way exciting right? Well I though so, sense I had liked him for so long, anyways long story short it was a good night.
For a while there I had just given up on guys, because I had, had such bad luck. My past experiences with guys, had been hang out, and make out(which is not how I really like to do things,) I mean it was not all that bad, at this point in my life I really could have given two craps about what I did. My attitude was "I do what I want". Ya not the best thin probably, but it was fun. That was back when I had a life.
Anyways back to my story. So he texted me then next day and we chatted for a bit, and then that Saturday he came and visited me at work. Who really does that? Well unless your like super great friends, or you like someone. So here's why I am so frustrated....
So after he came and visited me at work, I texted him, but he did not answer me until way later. Then we had like a few text conversation then that was it. So I wanted a few days and was like hey maybe ill text him, so I did, no answer at all for like a few days. So I finally texted him and way like hey we should talk about the other night and blah blah blah. But he was like I don't wanna have this kind of conversation over text. So I suggested we hang out and talk.... nothing. Seeriously guy?!? Who does that? besides all the past jerks I have gone out with. So I finally just gave up kinda. If you know me, you know I hate not getting answers. It drives me crazy. I just don't wan't to waste my time anymore on something thats never going to happen, and just go back to being friends, you know pretend like nothing ever happened, but no, he wont fricking answer me!
So It had been a good two weeks or so, so I finally saw him at a wedding receotion for mutual friends, I was kinda standoffish, by not talking to him and not hugging him good bye and stuff. Anyways, so I texted him once I got home and we talked for a bit, but the once again like always no answer. It drives me crazy! when people don't answer me, I mean if your busy or don't want to talk just tell me. I get it. Sometimes you don't wanna talk or your busy, but atleast have the curtisy to saysomething.
So now I really don't know where I stand with him or anything, I am so many different kinds of emotions right now, part of me wants to punch him in the face and the other wants to kiss him again. I mean I always though he was so sweet and kind, but sweet and kind people dont ignore you for two weeks. I really just wish I could forget about it and move on, but it is so fricking hard, cause I actually like this guy. As bad as thins might sound, I liked him ,when I was dating his best friends, heck I liked him when I was dating this other guy before his best friend.
Right now I really just want to know where I stand and I would also love some fricking answers to the questions I have asked and not some bull crap exscuse. Because this is really starting to get old, I am tired of the way my dating life had gone and I would love or it to change, but hears hoping I get some answers! and a happier me. Sorry if this made no sence.
