Everything happens for a reason

Well I looking at my blog and realized it has been a few months. So here is an update my friends or who ever actually reads this.
 Well I don't think I have told many people this, but I took my state boards back in august. I passed my written portion, but did not pass my practical,because of one stupid simple mistake, I wrote the wrong measurement.  At first I was a little mad, but mostly at myself for doing such a dumb things. I knew better than that too. But oh well it happened. Anyways so I had to pay and retake my practical portion of the test again. Well it took some time, but I did it. I took my test this past week, and ......... I passed! I am so relieved now.  Though the past few months have kinda sucked,because well I don't much care for my current job, I think that me failed actually turned out to be a good thing and I think it was supposed to happen. I have learned a lot over the past few months.
So here's what I learned...... The lord always finds a way for us. I know I don't share much about my testimony with people or really anyone. But the past few months have been a real struggle for me. I was accustomed to having money and being able to do whatever I wanted before. Of course I was saving my money,but still I was able to go out and do the things I wanted. I have slowly learned though that the Lord really does help us out. I hat not having extra money that I can use for fun or whatever, but I have learned that over the past few months, I always have just enough to do what I need to. I always have just enough to pay my bills and get gas and get what I need to. Sure I have to save a bit for the more expensive stuff, but it has taught me a lot and it has taught me to put my faith and trust in the Lord because he is always going to be there to help us.
That my friends is why I think I was supposed to not pass my test. I also think its because now that I have, I have been presented with this amazing job opportunity to work with special needs people.  This job so far looks and sounds amazing and really sounds like something I would enjoy very much. So I am hoping and praying that I get this job.
Also over the past few months I have done a lot of thinking about me and my relationship and trying to figure things out. I have learned a lot about myself and the person I want to be and need to be. I know that I make mistakes, and I can't let those mistakes effect how I live my life.
Well as for my love life. Well that guy and I are still dating. Has it been easy? No. But it has also taught me to be more patient and not to get a head of myself. All relationships have there ups and there downs,but you just have to keep moving forward and hope everything works out, because it usually does. And for me it did. We had a bit of a rough patch for a bit, when I was not sure what was going to happen or even if there was going to be anything, but thanks to my wonderful bishop and my amazing best friend, I was able to figure some stuff out and we were able to work though the rough patch. Well I still don't really know what is going to happen, but I know that I am happy with him and we will just figure it out as we go along.
So I have just been keeping my head up and looking on the bright side of things in all hopes that everything will be good, and even if it is not always good, at least we can always learn from it. So my advise to you, is to keep your head up as well, and know that everything happens for a reason. Although we may not know what that reason may be at the time, we just have to know that someday we will figure out that reason.

Just caching you all up on my exciting life.

Well life has been exciting and crazy past few months. Well in May I finally quit Lamar's. It was probably the best thing I ever did. My life changed so much once I quit. I was stress fee and having fun. It was not easy to find a job though. I had one for like a week, but it was not really something I enjoyed doing and I was not getting any hours. So I was jobless for a few months, but now I have a new job, and I really enjoy my job. I have great co-workers and amazing bosses. Work is just fun and enjoyable. I never knew work could actually be fun and stress free.

    Now for school. Well I have finished my program. It was so much fun and such an amazing experiences. During the program we had the opportunity to go to three different types of facilities. We went to a Long term center, a hospital and hospice. At all of theses places, I had many different experiences and meet so many amazing people. Being able to experience theses things, really reminded me of why I wanted to do this in the in the first place. It is such an amazing thing to be able to help someone even if it a small thing. These people are so grateful for all that everyone does for them and it just so amazing. I was so blessed to have the experience I had and meet the people I did. I had such amazing class mates who were so much fun, even though it was a class of all girls and one guy, I really enjoyed it and really enjoyed getting to know them. Also I take my state boards in a week from today. So August 22nd I take them and hopefully (fingers crossed) I pass them, so that I am able to find a job and do what I love.

Well now to the part everyone loves to hear about. My love life! Well I meet someone and he is so sweet. Well actually I meet him awhile ago when I started the pathways program. I always kinda though he was attractive, but didn't ever think anything of it. Well this last semester I decided that I would be friend him. So I did. I figured hey if he doesn't like me at least I have a new friend. So that way my attitude, but it was really hard, because the more I got to know him the more I liked him. which sucked. But we started talking and I invited him to pretty much everything the singles ward did. He came to a few activities and hang outs. Then one day we were talking and he asked if I wanted to hang out, I didn't think much of it because he said we were going with one of his friends and his girl. Anyways turned out he liked me back! I was a little surprised,but happy. He is a very nice and very attractive. He is such a gentlemen and so caring. He makes me happy. I am glad there are guys out there who know how to treat a lady.
Well that's my life right about now, Its pretty amazing I would say. I am happy and enjoying my life.  

Who knew growing up was so hard?

As little kids we always wanted to be a grown up and we could not wait to grow up. Now being a grown up, I wonder why little kids say that now. As much fun as it is to grow up and be able to do things on our own and not have to rely on someone else for something and not have to always ask permission to do something, it still has its down side.
     I am not going to lie I love my life and am quite proud of myself for where I have gotten and for the things I have done, but it has not been as easy thing. Growing up is hard, having to work just to pay for things and having to pay for school and doctors and well everything else. It makes me miss when my parents used to pay for everything. Then again at least I don't have to pay rent.
     Over the past few months I have been getting everything ready for school. While most of my friends are finishing up there last semester of there first year of college, I am finishing mine and starting my second year as well, at a different school. Let me tell ya its been stressful.
    As of  well.... as of tomorrow, I am officially starting my CNA classes so that I can get my certificate  and  get started on my career. I am super excited, but also a little nervous.  I have not actually attended college classes on campus. I have been all online, and now I have to actually go to a school and work with other people, people I have never meet before!I still am excited though.
   Work though has been crazy. I have been managing a different store then the one I was before, and that one has been quit an adventure. I don't like this store much, but now I am kinds starting to like it. I also put my two weeks in........ three weeks ago. Although I resigned as a manage I am still with the company and am not just an assistant manager. I now have the hours that will allow me to focus on my school, but also be able to work and get my money, which it nice. I love working with this other manager, she is amazing and such a wonderful boss. We have fun, but we also get things done. I have not enjoyed my job as much as I do in quite a long time.
   As stressful as life has been for me lately I am so grateful for this opportunity and I am so thankful for my education and being able to move forward in my life. It is exciting to start a new chapter in my life and I am looking forward to it.

Having a new out look.

Wow, it has been quite some time scene I have posted a new blog.  So lets just start off with what has been going on lately. So work ha been kinda nuts. I have another manager in with me now, who manages a lot differently then I do. At first we were butting heads a bit, but now we are getting along much better and are store is doing pretty well. Having another person who knows how to do my job is so nice, I actually have a life now! Its kinda awesome I get to go have fun and hang out with people now.

So lets talk about whats going on now. So after not caring about that one guy, I came to the conclusion that I actually am not attracted to him and I was just wasting my time. Now though after not really liking anyone, I meet this new guy. Hes attractive, funny and super nice. After having dated a few guys and also just making out with a few, it has made me think a lot about my decisions and how I approach things.

 So here is my new out look. I have just decide to let things happen from now on. If its meant to happen, then it will happen. If not than oh well. Lately I have been just trying to figure things out and let things happen. I have been quite calm and more chill lately. Not as stressed out it has been kind of nice actually.  Well that's kind of a summery of whats been going on and happening.

It's my life.

I think its funny how some people think they know your life better then you do. I was pretty sure that my life, is my life not someone elses. I am also pretty sure that I am only know that my whole life and not anyone else. Not my parents ,my best friend, my sisters. No one but me. 

So why is it that people talk about my life, like they know my life. Let me clue you in on a little secret. Its my life not yours, you have no clue what I deal with and what I am or have gone through, so lets not pretend like you do. 

Just because you know me does not mean you actually know me, so lets not judge me on what you think you know. Why do people even do this, personally I think it is ridicules. Lets not let that or what other people tell you make a decision for you. 

I mean sure things didnt go that well, ya I know I am a bit to handle, but it takes a special kind of person to handle it. But why do we talk about me to other people, I mean seriously, if you have a problem or something with me why ask or talk about it to someone else? I personally that is such a childish thing to do. So lets all grow up, and start acting our age. I am so tired of people thinking they know me or my life better then I do. I am pretty sure I am the only one who has lived my life, and no one else has. So lets keep it that way. 

Looking back on the past year.

Lately I have been looing back on the past year, and thinking about all the things I have accomplished for myself.  It is amazing to see what I have done and who has helped me through things. So what have I accomplished this year:

1) Started College
2) Got a job
3) Bought myself a nice laptop
4) Bought a car
5) Became the manager at my job
I would say, this past year has been pretty dang good. I have spent a lot of money, but it was all worth it. I love having the freedom a car gives, I don't have to rely on people to take me places,or anything. Its Kinda awesome.
Anyways overall  the past year has been very good for me. I have meet new people and new friendships. Made new helpful contacts, had a pretty good dating life. I am quite proud of myself. So here's to a just as good, if not better 2013!