Understanding.

For some reason I just don't understand why I actually care still. Things were a lot easier when I just stopped caring about everything. I did what I wanted and it went pretty well. But for some strange reason I decided to start caring again why? I get that I should care, but right now  I just don't want to care. I don't want to try and understand why I put up with the crap from my so called friends. You tell me you'll do something then don't act on it or answer. What the heck? You tell me you don't like this, then tell me you do like it? There are just so many things I dont understand. Just tell me the truth. If your not actually going to do something, then don't tell me your going to do it, or don't offer. Dont tell me you don't like the situation, your in when you actually do. Seriously people, lets make up our minds and keep me out of your confusion. I would like to just focus on me and not your problems or finding out what you actually mean. I have my own life to worry about and I need to continue on making me better. Ya this all probably sounded heartless, or crazy, but seriously people need to make up their own dang minds. I am tired if not understanding what the heck people want.

Making a change.

Well recently I did something that I probably should have not done. Its not a horrible thing or anything. It was just a stupid thing. Well a week or so ago I was talking with one of my good friends who is also very attractive. Anyways we were talking about this guy that I dated and this girl he used to hang out with. Anyways we had a really great conversation about life and dating and making good choices.
Well talking to him made me realize that this guy that I was seeing and am not just friends with, well that he was not really someone I needed in my life. With him I did not always make good decisions. Our friendship has been going well, but after not seeing him or talking to him or anything in about a week or two, I have realized my life is so much better without the drama that he carries.
I have decided that I want to make better choices in my life and be more me. Less boy crazy, less making out with whoever and whenever. I need to focus on me and making me better. So far it has been going well. But hopefully I can keep being strong and keep focusing on my self.