Getting the good with the bad.

Well it has been awhile. Life has kept me very busy the past few months with work and school .This is my first time working full time and actually going to a school for class rather than taking it online. It has been an interesting experiences for me though. I haven been very busy with school and work and the days that I do have to go to school I don't usually get to come home till I am  finished with school. But no the less I am enjoying going to a school and meeting new people. It is interesting to be in a school with so many different types of people. Most of us in my class are studying or aspiring something in the medical field, so it is nice to be able to relate to them in that way and to have some of them actually understand what I do. So school is trying but at the same time it is wonderful and exciting.

As for work, well you get the bad days along with the good days. Some weeks there maybe more of the not so great days than the great days, but I still love what I do. I am learning more and more each day how to better help my clients and there needs. Even though this job is tiring and a little difficult some days, I still love it more than anything and I am so thankful to be working where I do.

Well life has been very trying for me lately. I have been dealing with a lot of different thing and trying to keep my head up through it all. I have learned a few things about myself through it though and I have also learned to just stay positive. Even though what is happening is not my ideal situation and not what I was expecting I have learned to put my trust in the Lord more than I have before. The missionaries have also taught me some wonderful things that help me to keep that positive and happy attitude going. I am so thankful for this gospel in my life and the blessings it brings, and the blessings it will continue to bring.

Finding the good in life

   Well life has been pretty crazy lately.  It has definitely taken an unexpected turn. To be honest I don’t even know how to describe it. In one week I lost my 2 best friends and I don’t even know why. They both just stopped talking to me. If I knew why, it probably wouldn’t have bothered me so much, but because I have no clue why it really did bother me. At first it was a little difficult and annoying, but now I think I have come to the realization that I am better off without them. I don’t need someone in my life how is just going to be my friend for convince. If you are going to ditch me for who know what reason and not even bother to talk to me about it, than I don’t need you in my life.  I am better than that and I deserve better than that. Also if you are going to hate me and not tell me why, don’t go talking crap about me with my sister. I mean come on, who does that? Your sisters are supposed to be there for you all the time they are supposed to stick up for you and all that good stuff they are family. Friends come and go, but family is forever. But when your sister isn't even there for you it totally sucks!

     Even though all this stuff has been going on and I don’t really have many friends anymore, well at least really good friends, I am still having fun and meeting new people. I have also learned a lot about myself and who I am and what kind of person I want to be. This is probably going to sound selfish and odd, but I don’t really need a lot of people in my life to get me to where I want to be. I know what I need to do to get to where I want to be, now it’s just about figuring out how to get it done. I don’t need people in my life who are just going to weigh me down and cause problems. I don’t need and I don’t want to or have to deal with it. What I need is to be happy with my situation and as of right now I have come to terms with it and I am happy. I don’t have a lot of friends and they are not all really good friends, but they are fun to be around and we have a good time. I have a good job, that I love and even though sometimes it is tough I still love it and it is very rewarding. I have done a lot of finding myself and redefining myself and I am happy and enjoying my life. And that’s what is important right now. 

A little update and a New Year

It has been some time. So here's whats new, I have a new job, a new car and a new out look. Yes, I said it a new job! I love my new job. I am working as a CNA with mentally disabled adults. My job is wonderful, fun and at times trying. This job is not at all what I was expecting to do when I went in to this field, but none the less I love it and am learning so much. It is wonderful. I love the people I work with, both clients and staff.

Yes I also bought a new car! It was not easy but I did it. I also love my new car. Its not fancy or anything but its nice and new and I love it. I am also still doing school. Last semester was good I finished with A's in the classes I took. I am also starting a class at ACC. It will make for a few really long days but I am super excited about these classes and taking them, it will be a new experiences to take college classes at a real school and not just online.

Well I have made it a goal this year to just be me and do what I need and want to be. I am working on improving myself mentally, physically and spiritually. I have been taking the missionary discussions to help myself to learn more about the gospel and to get a better understanding of the basis of the gospel. It has been wonderful and I have learned so much. I have great missionaries who are all wonderful teachers, they make it so interesting to learn about and make me want to learn more.  So this year I am just working on me to be the person I want to be.

Well its a New Year. Which means a wonderful year of ups and downs and wonderful new experiences. I am looking forward to whatever this year has to bring. I welcome the good and the bad with open arms. I am ready for whatever this year is going to bring. The beginning of this year has not been easy so far, but its just a new trial that I have to face and figure out. But it has not all been bad, I have a wonderful and exciting life. I have an amazing job, wonderful friends and a loving family that is always there to help me. So here is to the new year!

Everything happens for a reason

Well I looking at my blog and realized it has been a few months. So here is an update my friends or who ever actually reads this.
 Well I don't think I have told many people this, but I took my state boards back in august. I passed my written portion, but did not pass my practical,because of one stupid simple mistake, I wrote the wrong measurement.  At first I was a little mad, but mostly at myself for doing such a dumb things. I knew better than that too. But oh well it happened. Anyways so I had to pay and retake my practical portion of the test again. Well it took some time, but I did it. I took my test this past week, and ......... I passed! I am so relieved now.  Though the past few months have kinda sucked,because well I don't much care for my current job, I think that me failed actually turned out to be a good thing and I think it was supposed to happen. I have learned a lot over the past few months.
So here's what I learned...... The lord always finds a way for us. I know I don't share much about my testimony with people or really anyone. But the past few months have been a real struggle for me. I was accustomed to having money and being able to do whatever I wanted before. Of course I was saving my money,but still I was able to go out and do the things I wanted. I have slowly learned though that the Lord really does help us out. I hat not having extra money that I can use for fun or whatever, but I have learned that over the past few months, I always have just enough to do what I need to. I always have just enough to pay my bills and get gas and get what I need to. Sure I have to save a bit for the more expensive stuff, but it has taught me a lot and it has taught me to put my faith and trust in the Lord because he is always going to be there to help us.
That my friends is why I think I was supposed to not pass my test. I also think its because now that I have, I have been presented with this amazing job opportunity to work with special needs people.  This job so far looks and sounds amazing and really sounds like something I would enjoy very much. So I am hoping and praying that I get this job.
Also over the past few months I have done a lot of thinking about me and my relationship and trying to figure things out. I have learned a lot about myself and the person I want to be and need to be. I know that I make mistakes, and I can't let those mistakes effect how I live my life.
Well as for my love life. Well that guy and I are still dating. Has it been easy? No. But it has also taught me to be more patient and not to get a head of myself. All relationships have there ups and there downs,but you just have to keep moving forward and hope everything works out, because it usually does. And for me it did. We had a bit of a rough patch for a bit, when I was not sure what was going to happen or even if there was going to be anything, but thanks to my wonderful bishop and my amazing best friend, I was able to figure some stuff out and we were able to work though the rough patch. Well I still don't really know what is going to happen, but I know that I am happy with him and we will just figure it out as we go along.
So I have just been keeping my head up and looking on the bright side of things in all hopes that everything will be good, and even if it is not always good, at least we can always learn from it. So my advise to you, is to keep your head up as well, and know that everything happens for a reason. Although we may not know what that reason may be at the time, we just have to know that someday we will figure out that reason.

Just caching you all up on my exciting life.

Well life has been exciting and crazy past few months. Well in May I finally quit Lamar's. It was probably the best thing I ever did. My life changed so much once I quit. I was stress fee and having fun. It was not easy to find a job though. I had one for like a week, but it was not really something I enjoyed doing and I was not getting any hours. So I was jobless for a few months, but now I have a new job, and I really enjoy my job. I have great co-workers and amazing bosses. Work is just fun and enjoyable. I never knew work could actually be fun and stress free.

    Now for school. Well I have finished my program. It was so much fun and such an amazing experiences. During the program we had the opportunity to go to three different types of facilities. We went to a Long term center, a hospital and hospice. At all of theses places, I had many different experiences and meet so many amazing people. Being able to experience theses things, really reminded me of why I wanted to do this in the in the first place. It is such an amazing thing to be able to help someone even if it a small thing. These people are so grateful for all that everyone does for them and it just so amazing. I was so blessed to have the experience I had and meet the people I did. I had such amazing class mates who were so much fun, even though it was a class of all girls and one guy, I really enjoyed it and really enjoyed getting to know them. Also I take my state boards in a week from today. So August 22nd I take them and hopefully (fingers crossed) I pass them, so that I am able to find a job and do what I love.

Well now to the part everyone loves to hear about. My love life! Well I meet someone and he is so sweet. Well actually I meet him awhile ago when I started the pathways program. I always kinda though he was attractive, but didn't ever think anything of it. Well this last semester I decided that I would be friend him. So I did. I figured hey if he doesn't like me at least I have a new friend. So that way my attitude, but it was really hard, because the more I got to know him the more I liked him. which sucked. But we started talking and I invited him to pretty much everything the singles ward did. He came to a few activities and hang outs. Then one day we were talking and he asked if I wanted to hang out, I didn't think much of it because he said we were going with one of his friends and his girl. Anyways turned out he liked me back! I was a little surprised,but happy. He is a very nice and very attractive. He is such a gentlemen and so caring. He makes me happy. I am glad there are guys out there who know how to treat a lady.
Well that's my life right about now, Its pretty amazing I would say. I am happy and enjoying my life.  

Who knew growing up was so hard?

As little kids we always wanted to be a grown up and we could not wait to grow up. Now being a grown up, I wonder why little kids say that now. As much fun as it is to grow up and be able to do things on our own and not have to rely on someone else for something and not have to always ask permission to do something, it still has its down side.
     I am not going to lie I love my life and am quite proud of myself for where I have gotten and for the things I have done, but it has not been as easy thing. Growing up is hard, having to work just to pay for things and having to pay for school and doctors and well everything else. It makes me miss when my parents used to pay for everything. Then again at least I don't have to pay rent.
     Over the past few months I have been getting everything ready for school. While most of my friends are finishing up there last semester of there first year of college, I am finishing mine and starting my second year as well, at a different school. Let me tell ya its been stressful.
    As of  well.... as of tomorrow, I am officially starting my CNA classes so that I can get my certificate  and  get started on my career. I am super excited, but also a little nervous.  I have not actually attended college classes on campus. I have been all online, and now I have to actually go to a school and work with other people, people I have never meet before!I still am excited though.
   Work though has been crazy. I have been managing a different store then the one I was before, and that one has been quit an adventure. I don't like this store much, but now I am kinds starting to like it. I also put my two weeks in........ three weeks ago. Although I resigned as a manage I am still with the company and am not just an assistant manager. I now have the hours that will allow me to focus on my school, but also be able to work and get my money, which it nice. I love working with this other manager, she is amazing and such a wonderful boss. We have fun, but we also get things done. I have not enjoyed my job as much as I do in quite a long time.
   As stressful as life has been for me lately I am so grateful for this opportunity and I am so thankful for my education and being able to move forward in my life. It is exciting to start a new chapter in my life and I am looking forward to it.