Finding the good in life

   Well life has been pretty crazy lately.  It has definitely taken an unexpected turn. To be honest I don’t even know how to describe it. In one week I lost my 2 best friends and I don’t even know why. They both just stopped talking to me. If I knew why, it probably wouldn’t have bothered me so much, but because I have no clue why it really did bother me. At first it was a little difficult and annoying, but now I think I have come to the realization that I am better off without them. I don’t need someone in my life how is just going to be my friend for convince. If you are going to ditch me for who know what reason and not even bother to talk to me about it, than I don’t need you in my life.  I am better than that and I deserve better than that. Also if you are going to hate me and not tell me why, don’t go talking crap about me with my sister. I mean come on, who does that? Your sisters are supposed to be there for you all the time they are supposed to stick up for you and all that good stuff they are family. Friends come and go, but family is forever. But when your sister isn't even there for you it totally sucks!

     Even though all this stuff has been going on and I don’t really have many friends anymore, well at least really good friends, I am still having fun and meeting new people. I have also learned a lot about myself and who I am and what kind of person I want to be. This is probably going to sound selfish and odd, but I don’t really need a lot of people in my life to get me to where I want to be. I know what I need to do to get to where I want to be, now it’s just about figuring out how to get it done. I don’t need people in my life who are just going to weigh me down and cause problems. I don’t need and I don’t want to or have to deal with it. What I need is to be happy with my situation and as of right now I have come to terms with it and I am happy. I don’t have a lot of friends and they are not all really good friends, but they are fun to be around and we have a good time. I have a good job, that I love and even though sometimes it is tough I still love it and it is very rewarding. I have done a lot of finding myself and redefining myself and I am happy and enjoying my life. And that’s what is important right now.