Birthdays and boy drama.....

Well I am officially 18! It is so exciting. Even though I had to work on my birthday, I had a wonderful day at work which is really surprising, because I do not much care for my job. But it was an exceptionally fantastic day. The sun was shinning, and it was nice a hot.  So I had a lot of energy and danced a lot so it was a blast. Then we had the missionaries over for dinner. I quite enjoy there company, but it is sad that my favorite cute one left, but oh well. Anyways so one of the elders was giving the prayer, and he said something along the lines of how they were thankful for me being born on this day or something like that, so after he said that I kinda laughed but it was quietly so no one heard except Rachel........ So she was like when he is off his mission you should date him, then marry him and have his babies. oh my goodness! It was really funny but that would be interesting. I mean he is a good looking man, and smart, but he is on him mission for another year or so.
Anyways so after dinner I went to institute, they unfortunately sang to making it completely obvious to everyone that I was 30 min late. I know it is odd,but I do not really like being sang to. It is way to much attention for me. I stayed and played volleyball for a few hours then when that was over a few of us sat in the parking lot for like an hour and a half and that was fun I got to know a few other a little better. overall i would say it was a pretty dang good birthday! And in a few weeks I will have my party!

Boy drama.............. I do not much care for drama, but this seabiscuit, who is a lot older then me makes more drama then a 15 year old girl! Anyways so after our conversation the other night(previous post) He decided that he would go talk crap about me to his "buddies" at FHE (family Home Evening), I personally think that is a more immature then not talking about it. I think that something that is going on between two people, needed to stay between those people, I mean ya maybe my family knows, but besides them only like 3 people know and they are some of my closest friends, and only 2 of them actually know who it is. But I don't go telling the whole world my problems between us. That is crazy! Anyways so I am the immature one, because I don't go around telling everyone our issues. But whatever, he can do what he wants if his stupid "buddies" are to stupid to actually get to know me and not judge me off of what he tells them, then they will learn I am nothing like he say's I am. People need to make there own judgments about people based on how they meet them and there experiences with them, not on what other people tell them. So I promise this is the last and final post about Seabiscuit, because I could care less about him or what he tells others cause he is not attractive, well to me and he is just annoying. And I don't need to deal with the drama he likes to create. Hope you all have a wonderful day! Love you all! 

Silly Boy. Didn't your mother ever to teach you not to play games with girls who play them better?

So there is this boy. Lets call him seabiscuit, because that's what he looks like. So we started as friends and then things got complicated, so when ever we talked to each other a good conversation turned into a fight. This went on for a month or so. Then I finally told him that we should just forget about what happened, so we did. Then we did not talk to each other for a month or so, unless we were at a church activity or I needed a ride. So then he decided that we should be friends again so he started talking to me again, it was nice at first then it got a little annoying, because he likes to do this thing where he says something to what I said and I don't understand what or why he responded that way he did. So anyways he texted me last night, and he did that. I said something about how sometimes being a grown up sucks, and he though it would be funny to say , "but your not one" and so I told him that just because I am not 18 does not mean that I don't act like an adult and have to pay for stuff and be an adult. And he said "lol" I  don't understand why, so I asked him what? So he said" oh nothing" And if you know me that really bothers me, so I was like okay I am not playing this game with you again. So He said ' Look's like you are" And I was like no, so just tell me. So he goes" You'll Never know" So I responded "then you'll never talk to me again". And that was then end of our conversation. So today I was feeling a little bad, because ya maybe it was a little mean and over reacting, but I was done with it, so me feeling sorry texted him and apologized. Thinking that was a good idea, so he responded "I'm done with you! You think your grown up. And then you pull something like that, you have a ton of growing up to do, and I don't care if your turning 18 or not that does not mean anything besides that you are a year older so once you mature a bit and don't get mad about everything then we will talk" So one things, I am a heck of a lot more mature then him I actually act older then my age and not like I am in high school. So   I responded to him and told him I am more mature then him cause well I am. So after I told Rachel, Jason and Kaitlyn. Rachel took my phone, and said "Hi douche this is Mellissa's sister. I think you need to keep your thoughts about my sister to yourself. She has no desire to date an ass like you. That does not mean she is immature it means she is smart. So stop being a stalker. She is way to good for you anyways." Hahaha I love my sister so much. And after that he did not reply which I have no problem with, cause well he is as my sister so nicely put it "a douche and an ass". I know I should not feel bad about anything, but I have a heart and a soul. I do feel bad and it sucks sometimes, but I am not done trying to be nice to him. Once you make me mad to a certain point I am done trying to be nice, so sorry for the rant, but that's what was going on and I felt I needed to blog about it.

Baby's, Dances and Confusion

 Well I am going to Be an Aunt! I am so excited for my older sister! I am mostly excited to be able to spoil the baby what ever it is. I kinda want it to be a boy, or maybe a girl because then we can dress it up in little tutus and dresses and stuff like that.I am excited for her besides the fact that some times she gets a little crazy and grouchy, but that is just the hormones.

Well this past Saturday, we went to a dance thing. The theme was hoedown. So my sister being creative decided to go as an Indian. So we went as a cow girl and Indian. Surprisingly she was the only one dressed as an Indian and seriously how attractive are we? We looked pretty dang good. It was a good night we meet some new people,danced with cute ones and learned a few new dances. Over all it is pretty fun

Confusion has taken over my life! There is just so much going on right now, I just do not know what I want or what I want to do. Some times having to grow up sucks! I hate trying to figure out what school I want to go to and when I want to start, and what is going to be best for me. I know where I want to go and what I want to study, but I can't go there till winter 2013, which is like a year, and I am not putting off school for year, that would be crazy! So I don't know if I want to stay here, or just go off and then transfer. 

        Then there is this guy, we are friends now, but things are getting complicated again with him. Things have happened and I have kinda learned, and know the type of guy he is, but I mean he is just so nice to me and we have some really great talks and some not so great ones. A month or so ago, a nice talk would turn in to a fight, then we went to just being friends and we did not talk much, but now we have started talking and texting again, but I am almost 99.99% sure I do not like him like that,but then sometimes I am not. I know nothing is going to happen, because I don't want to go back to the way things were and if something happened again then it would, but ugh sometimes I just don't know. I mean my heart and mind just don't have the same feelings anymore. They both conflict me. I know what my mind says is probably what is going to be the best thing, mostly because I think about what is going to happen, but sometimes the heart wants, what the heart wants. And that just sucks. But I am done with guys for now(well we will see how long that lasts). If you know me,like really know me then you know it is not going to be easy. I mean I am a flirt it is the easiest thing I know how to do. But I am going to try. Well enough about boys! Back to other stuff.

   Things have just been crazy...Or I am just going crazy. But things have just been confusing trying to figure out school and money and life is just life and it is confusing. Growing up is just confusing. I mean you actually have to figure out your own life and figure out what is best for yourself, and when you don't know what that is anymore it just sets in a whole new set of confusion.But I just have to trust that what is supposed to happen and what is going to happen is going to be the best thing for me, and eventually things will work themselves out and things will get better.  

Judgement

We all do it. It is a natural thing for all people. We judge people on looks, actions and personality. But you can judge someone too much. Everyone makes mistakes, that life!I know I used to be a really judgmental person when I was younger, but I have gotten better thanks to my best friend Haeleigh. But judging someone does not only reflect on there mistakes or something, it also reflects on our self's and who we are. Yes, sometimes we do judge people, I mean sometimes is just comes out and you have to say "Really?".. Or something like that. I know I am not perfect, no one is, but before we judge someone on the mistakes they have made no matter how many or how bad they are, we need to think about ourselves, would you want someone saying those things if you were in there situation? No, I don't think you would, so why do we say the things we do. I know in my family, if it pops in to our heads then most likely it is coming out of our mouths, but that is just they way we are. We do try to edit it some times though. I am not saying that I am perfect and I don't judge people, cause I know I do, but I am going to try to be better at not, but I think we all need to not be so judgmental toward other people, especially people we know. You can't judge someone on just what you hear, put your self in there situation, which you really can't do, because you did not grow up the way they did and see what they saw or anything like that. You were not there to experience what they have been though or done. When you are judging some one you are not thinking about the whole person, just there actions, which is not who they are all the time, people do stupid things and make mistakes! So I think we all need to work on not judging. Some people may be mad at me for this, but get over it I love you anyways.Or just don't read what I wright I could care less. Sorry if that sounded mean! Love you all

Untouchable

We all have them. Whether they are people, places or things. In this case we are talking about people.... You know that person that you want,but you know you can't have them for any reason. Or you know you shouldn't, because they are bad news. Ya well that is pretty much my life and some others too. There is always going to be that one person you want to be with or something like that, but you know you can't or shouldn't. It kinda sucks when you know, but you still try. That is my problem, because I know i should not flirt with an untouchable/ or unavailable ( at the moment), but that is just how I am. I can flirt with anyone whether I think they are attractive or not. It is just a natural thing for me! I flirt all the time. If flirting was a main language, it would be my first. But the worst is when you want someone, but you know you should not, because they are not a so good person for you. Or they are just a player. I really don't like those guys, they think they can get any girl they want. News flash you cant! Anyways that's just what has been on my mind the past day or so.

Oh the beauty of my job.

 So sometimes at my job I get to see the stupid and funny things people do while they are driving........ Some people.... I have recently learned that some people are like me but more drastic. There was this one guy driving and blasting his music and he was like head banging and dancing.. like actually dancing in his car. I could not stop laughing, it was probably the funniest thing I have ever seen.
 But on another note, the wonderful weather we have been having has diffidently helped me enjoy my job more. Who would not love to get paid to dance on a corner in this beautiful sunny and warm weather? I just love it.

Life.Boys. And a job

Well the past few months have been crazy! I graduated high school... early. So I have been working and enjoying life in the singles ward. It is quite strange not being in school. I do not see all my friends as much, but I have made some new ones, that are very fun and interesting. I have been applying to college's and have been accepted to one.. so far, I am still waiting to hear from a few others.


Being in the singles ward..... Well that brought a whole bunch of new.. Boys! Some are attractive,but I am the youngest one in the ward. So no dating them.... Yet. But there are not many of them that I think I would date. There is one he is not that much older, but we have only talked a few times. He is Kinds, but I do not think I would date him. This other guy on the other had, well he gets on my nerves a lot. Yes he is attractive and we are really good at being just friends and that's the way it will be. I think it is better that way..... Then there is "the stalker" Well that's what me and my sister call him. I know that sounds mean, but he really does annoy me and my sister like all the time and he always wants to know whats going on. I try to be nice I am good at that, but when he talks or we see his face....sometimes we really just want to punch him.. He just has one of those faces.


Oh the life of a working graduate. I work for a tax place as a waver. So basically I dress up as lady liberty and wave and dance on a corner. It is not as much fun as you think. I enjoy it some times, but it is kinds boring. But having a positive attitude about it helps. I found that when I have a positive attitude, then I enjoy my job a lot more and my days go by faster. So if you see me.. wave or honk.