Well a while ago I was seeing this guy...... Ya that one. Well a few weeks ago we started talking again, it was good for a few days, then he told me he had a girlfriend! I know how crazy right, he told me he did not want to date me cause he did not want a relationship, then he tells me this, well we talked kinda about it for a bit then we just started getting mad at each other so I stopped talking to him. Trust me he was lucky that I did not say the things I actually wanted to say to him cause the things I wanted to say were way worse then the things I actually said.
Well after that talk I just stopped talking to him and stopped being nice to him all together. I thought it was way easier, for awhile it was. Hating him made things easier for me, so that's what I did. This lasted a little bit, but then I started to notice that me hating him so much made me kinda more of a mean person and I did not like that so much, so I just went to ignoring him. Which also worked for a bit, till one night when we were playing volleyball. Well here is the thing normally when we played and I either hated him or was ignoring him I would play on the opposite team so I did not have to deal with him, anyways, Last week we were playing volleyball, and he came and played next to me and that did not make me happy. He tried to say hi to me, but I kinda just ignored it. Well I was talking to my sister Kaitlyn, and she told me that I should really try to be nice to him, so I gave that a try.
Well it turns out that being nice to him was way easier then those other things. It made me a lot happier and we actually had a great conversation. He offered to take me and my sister home after we went to steak and shake, which was really fun. So anyways he took us home and him and I were talking about this guy that I am kinda seeing,but don't want to be seeing. So we talked about that, we talked about his girlfriend and we talked about us and some other stuff, well we ended up having a really good conversation and all we did was talk for like 3 hours.
Well now for the title of this blog, well when we were talking I kinda found out that he still likes me a bit and I kinda think those feelings might be there too, but I know I just want to be friends with him. Well I think. I know our relationship was not that great, but we had a lot of fun, so why is it that even though we know we don't want/ need it, we want it anyways? Is it just cause it is something familiar to us, or just because we had such a great connection? I don't really know, but what I do know is that he is actually a good guy, we have fun together and he is so easy to talk to. But right now I just am not really sure what to do about the situation. I don't want to ruin our friendship, now that we actually have one. So I guess I will just see where this all goes and be smart about it.
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